Well... Here's What I Think.

This can not keep happening. I only have two years of college left and I have no friends here yet. It feels like I’m at home again. No one will make an effort to hang out with me but if I get ahold of them we will hang out. It makes me feel like there is something wrong with me that keeps people from wanting to be friends with me but not enough for them to say no to being around me. Even when I do et hold of people I feel like a nuisance when I am there. Like I am just being tolerated or pitied. I get that it takes time for me to warm up to people but once I do I am actually pretty cool. Everyone in my fraternity has their grip of friends that they always hang out with and I try to put myself out there and be sociable but I always end up feeling rejected and ignored. I don’t know why I’m like this and it is the thing that drives me crazy about myself. I came to Iowa hoping for a fresh start, to get away from all the bullshit friends it had back home but instead I ended up having no friends at all. I don’t know if it is my anxiety talking or if part of me really believes this but I have been thinking a lot about the path of my life lately and if it is the path I really want to go down. It has come to the point where I don’t even know if school is the right thing for me. I guess you could say that I don’t know who I am, what I am doing and where I should be. I don’t know if anything in my life is right. How do I go about fixing this?

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